“So what does your heart say?”
I regret saying those words as soon as they left my lips.
First, New Year. Then Caleb. Now Josh.
Home would be the best alternative, but that just would make my life less interesting now, would
it?
Josh, on the other hand, has gained stealth powers and has managed to decrease the distance
between us. Which cues the pounding of my heart.
I still get no answer. Maybe that’s a good thing.
I don't wanna hear my time will come
When it feels like it's already here
That song used to drive me nuts when my niece would listen to it over and over. Now it just seem
appropriate.
But still no answer.
And it hurts like hell in my chest, but Josh, just leave it at that. Tell me to leave. Tell me to go
away. Tell me anything but..
“I love you.”
He just had to say it.
“Donna, I am kicking myself in the butt right now for not doing this any sooner.”
Yeah, CJ will also kick your butt when she finds out about this. “Josh, this isn’t the time.”
“Yes, it is. I have been talking to Joey..”
Ugh, that name. It will forever be a thorn on my side, won’t it?
“And she’s opened my eyes to how much I needed to re-evaluate my life and to do what I have
wanting to but was too afraid to do so.”
Oh, my God. Is he firing me? I must remind myself to call Joey Lucas and tell her..
“That’s why I brought you out here. To tell you how much I love you. How much I need you in my
life. How much I need you more than just during office hours.”
And tell her that she is God’s gift to me. “You do keep me beyond office hours, Josh,” I manage to
whisper as tears begin to blur my vision.
“You know what I mean.”
“Hardly ever,” I tease, to which he laughs.
But why go anywhere when you're so near
'Cause when I reach out to you So sad and confused And feeling like I could cry You dry my eyes
He softly wipes away the tears as he caresses my cheek. “I love you, Joshua,” I finally confess.
And it seems like a tremendous load has been lifted from me. That’s all I should have done?
He inches his face closer, and this time, I plant my lips on his.
So this is what it feels like to be on the gloating end of the New Year’s theory.
Thank God for this holiday.
“One minute until midnight,” I hear someone say from the inside. Josh must have heard it, too,
because he breaks away and smiles at me.
“Will you dance with me?” he asks. I nod, and we go in, hand in hand. Once we reach the dance
floor, the song is just ending.
When you hold me in your arms
You make me whole And I don't know just what I would do Without one kiss from you
And that’s exactly what I am feeling. I have never felt so complete in my entire life.
Though we both know that tomorrow we will never hear the end of this from CJ, Toby and maybe
even Sam, we also know that tomorrow is the beginning of this. Of us.
God, wasn’t this my wish? This is my miracle.
I smile.
He smiles back.
I'm looking for one kiss goodnight
To last all my life
He leans in to kiss me again, and this time, we don’t hide it from anyone else.
Oh, God. What if I get fired? What if Josh gets fired? Who would hire me? On the other hand,
who would hire HIM? What if he mistook whatever Leo said to him? What if..
“Donnatella, shut up and kiss me,” he whispers into my mouth as we continue to kiss into the real
millennium.