Leo had said he didn’t want to see either Toby or CJ
at the White House the next day, so they spent the day
with Meghan.
“It’s two o’clock.” CJ said.
“I think Mommy’s trying to say that it’s your nap
time.” Toby said to Meghan as he picked her up. “I’ll
put her to bed.” Toby said to CJ.
“Okay.” CJ said and watched Toby take Meghan to her
room.
CJ rested her head against the pillows on the couch
and closed her eyes. She still hadn’t told Toby about
her pregnancy. It had been on the tip of her tongue to
tell him so many times. But she just couldn't get the
words out. She still didn’t know how to tell him. Her
next appointment with Dr. Santos was on Tuesday, so
she had until Tuesday to tell him. She jumped when she
felt Toby touch her cheek.
“I’m sorry I didn’t mean to startle you.” Toby said
and sat down behind her on the couch.
“Don’t worry about it.” She said as he put his arms
around her and pulled her against him. “I didn’t hear
you come back in.”
“You looked like you were lost in thought.”
“I was.”
“Do you want to talk about it?”
“Not really.” CJ said and laid her head against his
shoulder.
“Okay,” Toby replied.
“I know I’ve probably said this about a million
times, but it’s good to have you home.”
“I don’t think I’ll get tired of hearing you say
that.” Toby said.
“Good.” CJ laughed.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
“I really have to find a way to tell him.” CJ thought
as she was sitting in bed reading later that night. “I
can’t hide this for long. Why am I so afraid to tell
him?” She sat the book on the night stand. She was
subconsciously rubbing her stomach when Toby walked
in.
“That brings back memories.” He said.
“What?” She asked startled.
“You rubbing your stomach. You did that a lot when
you were pregnant with Meghan. And that’s the second
time today I have startled you.”
“Yeah, it is. Come over here, please. We need to
talk.” CJ said.
“Okay.” Toby said and sat down beside her on the edge
of the bed.
CJ took his hand and placed it against her stomach
before speaking. “Remember when I went on birth
control, they told us it wasn’t full proof?”
“Yes, they said that if taken correctly...”
“Exactly if taken correctly. I forgot to take them
when Meghan had the ear infection.”
“Okay.”
“I was really hoping I wouldn’t have to spell this
out for you.” CJ sighed. “Toby, I’m pregnant.”
Toby sat and stared at her for a moment before
speaking. “You are positive of this.”
“Yes.” CJ said.
“When?”
“When did it happen, or when did I find out?” CJ
asked.
“Both, I guess.” Toby said.
“It likely happened the night before you left. I
found out for certain on our anniversary.” CJ replied.
“Our anniversary?”
“Yes.”
“What have the doctors said?”
“Dr. Santos says the baby is fine. Dr. Phillips says
that for now, I’m fine. They are both hopeful that
I’ll carry this baby as long as I did Meghan. There is
of course also the chance that nothing will go wrong
this time.”
“Why didn’t you tell me this earlier?” Toby asked.
“I couldn’t find the words.” CJ said.
“Why not?”
“I was afraid of how you would react.”
“You were afraid of how I would react?”
“Yes, I was afraid you wouldn’t be happy about it.”
“Why did you think that?”
“I remember what you went through when I was pregnant
with Meghan...”
“And I remember what you went through. I also
remember that you never regretted it.”
“I don’t want to watch you worrying over me again.”
CJ said with tears starting to form in her eyes.
“You know I never regretted it either.” Toby said.
“I know that.”
“Then why would you think I wouldn’t be happy over
this? You know during the first few months you were
pregnant with Meghan, I used to dream about us having
another child.”
“So did I.” CJ said.
“Do you think I could regret that you are pregnant
then?”
“No.”
“Okay, but you haven’t asked if I’m happy about it?”
Toby said.
“Are you happy?” CJ laughed.
“Yes, I am.” Toby said he gently rubbed her stomach
as he spoke. “I never thought I’d do this again.”
“What?” CJ asked.
“Touch you, knowing that you were carrying my child.”
“I am, aren’t I.”
“You sound as if you are just realizing that.” Toby
laughed, he had moved until he was holding her.
“No, trust me I realized it the first time I was
sick.”
“Has it been bad?”
“It hasn’t been as bad since you’ve been home. I was
dizzy a couple of times and I told Mrs. Bartlet that
it should be called afternoon or evening sickness.
I’ve been fine in the mornings so far.”
“She knows?”
“She guessed it. I didn’t actually tell her. Josh
also guessed it.”
“Does Meghan know.”
“No, I haven’t told her that in about seven months
she will have a little brother or sister.”
“Okay. Are you ready for this?”
“For what?” CJ asked.
“You know I’m going to be overprotective of you again
and that I’ll try to take care of you.”
“I like it when you take care of me.”
“You shouldn’t have told me that.”
“I shouldn’t have?”
“No, you shouldn’t have.” Toby said and kissed her.
“You should get some sleep.”
“Yes, I can tell it’s started again. You told me to
sleep more when I was pregnant than you ever have.” CJ
laughed and snuggled into his embrace.
“You never gave me my anniversary present.” Toby
said.
“I did.” CJ said.
“That’s funny I don’t seem to remember unwrapping
anything.” Toby laughed.
“What did I just tell you?”
“That you are pregnant.”
“Exactly, and when did I find that out?”
“On our anniversary. Wait the baby is the anniversary
gift.”
“Well telling you I am pregnant is the gift.”
“A very unexpected gift.” Toby said.
“But a good one?”
“Yeah a good one.” Toby said and kissed her. “I love
you Claudia Jean, go to sleep now.”
“Love you too.” CJ whispered.
Toby watched CJ sleep for awhile. It had been
shocking to learn that she was pregnant. But he was
happy about it. “Everything has to be all right. It
just has to be.” He thought as he gently rubbed her
stomach.
The End.